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	2008.05.15  02.22 my friends are awesome 4Srsly. I feel so guilty now. When I got home and opened the bag, I realized not only did he wash my clothes, wait in the parking lot to deliver them to me after I got off work,but he even neatly folded them!!! OMG! I feel so guilty...in a good way. I'm super grateful,too.

	2008.05.13  17.31 Acen is two days away are you excited yet? my week has been ridiculously bad leading up to it. My special Ah my wallet is gone forever and all my ID's and stuff. I had to go pick up a new ID today just to take money out of my bank account. All this suck has only put more pressure on this weekend to be awesome. Not to mention it has that it has the amazing GLO concert with Becks and her sister, Sarah to compete with. I don't know if I ever made an entry explaining things in detail but it was awesome. Becks and her sister are really cute and when you can remind them to interact with people besides each other, really fun to hang out with! Even Steve was cool, despite thinking I was flirting(?) with him. It looks like Jessica will be coming either Friday or Saturday and despite my better judgment Vivi will be crashing in my room Thursday night as long as John and Corey approve. I'll call Marisa tonight and try to get her to come for atleast a day, too. I have like no time to plan my panel so I'll probably be doing that in the hotel room Thursday night. Any help is welcomes. The panel itself will be @ 5pm on Saturday, I think. It's right before doors open for the Masquerade. The AH! My fan panel, so check it out! Woo! Yeah! I'll be keeping my eyes out for a new AMG wallet and (wishful thinking?) a season one uncut One Piece dvd!! I know a lot of people have already received their preorders. I'm hoping some sellers ordered some for acen and will have copies. After seeing clips on YT I genuinely got excited and drool-ish over watching OP @ home on a big screen tv with guns and booze and swearing and all that good stuff left in! After acen I'm going to be tightening the budget and seriously buy a car this time. So yeah. I have to have fun this weekend. Who else is pumped?! the lyrics to that song are just as cute in the english version and the lyrics to "We Are" are just as cheesy! Both songs are awesome though! I actually like the english dubbed versions about as much as the originals. Ironically, I havent had any time to read manga or watch anime because my free time has gone to acen preparations! Music: UltraNeko episodes

	2008.05.11  13.35 Is there anyone who ISN'T sarcastic?! lol. That was what some guy said when he read that "Nine Lives" comic I did. I did it like two years ago and am working on something i feel is so much more awesomer but I still think it turned out pretty well and show it to people from time to time and ask them to ignore the shitty art. Anyway, he felt like all the character's "voices" were way too similar or something. He said that, "they all kind of sounded like Randall from Clerks. Well...Randall-lite." To which I responded, "Pfft! Well it makes sense, I mean look at who wrote it!" So I guess I'm not allowed to wash my clothes at home anymore. It's complicated and personal but basically, it'll be embarassing and uncomfortable but I'll have to ask one of my closer friends, who understands that I have a shitty living situation and a horrible relationship with my parents, if I can wash my stuff for acen at their place and figure out what I'm gonna do from there on. I mean, there are no lanudromats anywhere near my house and I don't have a car. My parents have a car...and a van but you know...*imitates blowning own brains out* Actually, my airsoft gun(for my cosplay) came in the mail a few days ago so I can totally do that without my fingers now! Irregardless, my parents are divorced and they live together. A lot of my friends don't know/care/realize that because I don't talk about myself too much. But in the interest of full disclosure and the story, they live together and are not married...anymore. I should also mention that pretty much my entire life my mother has never really held down a job. I think I remember her ranting about how she didn't have to work anymore since she'd given birth. As a kid, that seemed like her just being melodramatic,but I guess she was serious. Anyway, recently she told me that she was leaving everyone and going to move in with some dude. Which was a little surprising, considering she has no friends, isn't close with her family, and only leaves the house to go to this class she's been taking for a few months. Apparently, she had time amidst all that to meet a fella. Anyway, they must not go out since she's almost always at home, so I doubt they will actually move in together. In my entire life she's never had a real boyfriend. And I'm just at the age where I recently realized all those really old guys who hung around her and bought my or my sister presents were probably nailing her or something close. Y'know blowjobs? It just annoys me that for the first time in a long time, some dude pays attention to her and her immediate reaction is "OMFG! Now I can like, run away with you and escape my shitty life and all responsibility whatsoever!" And the way she tells me all this is by yelling at me that she'll probably take off soon and I can't come with. Sigh...I seriously doubt that'll happen but more power to her I guess, whatev. Anyway, I haven't moved in with someone else yet but I guess I'm going to really soon regardless of what happens with her. This situation is just really annoying. I've avoided it because I don't have a job where I can live all that confortably even with a roommate. Not to mention, once I move out, that's it. I will never move back in or be able to move back in with my parents or ask them for money or anything like that. I mean, I could try if I really needed to,but honestly, I know I won't. So basically, if I get fired or can't pay bills or get tossed out or in a fight with roommates or whatever. I'll be homeless. And that's what's kept me from moving out until now. But right now, things're getting so crappy, I might as well risk it. Mood: frustrated Music: When It All Went Wrong-The Deadly Syndromes

	2008.05.10  02.52 meh... tonite was literally the perfect weather for me, but I have to start work @ 8am, so for the second day in a row I had to turn down a group of friends begging me to go see Speed Racer with them. I really miss Corey and John. I have a feeling rooming with them might make this year, my best acen! Skewl sucks, work sucks, everything is a little sucky right now so I really hope I enjoi this little vacation(can you tell i had a bad day? :D). Actually all those things don't suck, it's moreso not having a car just makes life suck for me. But I'm not gonna go emo or anything. Tomorrow'll probably be tons better. Speaking of that, I better get some sleep. Music: I believe in a thing called love-The Darkness

	2008.05.05  01.09 lol this week+weekend was so busy After the little barbecue party thing today, everyone wanted to check out Harold And Kumar, which I told them was very different from the first movie but also very hilarious. So I just got back from seeing the same movie a second time in pretty much a less than 24 hour timespan. I haven't seen Baby's Mama but I have a feeling it isn't as good. As cute and funny as I find Tina Fey, I just loathe Amy Polar. Also people keep telling me how amazing Iron Man is. Well, movies are ten bucks a pop, so I'm done until next week, atleast. I was only able to go because I found like twenty bucks left over in the pants I wore to the concert. Collead/Ahmed was there,too. We talked a bit about acen. I'm started to get excited about it now. I do really wish more of the usuals like Ris,Jessica, and Becks were going this year,though.

	2008.05.04  02.07 What. The. Hell. So remember when I mentioned how many gay guys have been hitting on me recently? Ofcourse you do. And then that time when I mentioned how I was always alone with Gina and if I was her boyfriend I would get suspicious and she laughed and yelled "Dude! My boyfriend thinks you're totally gay!" Well, I was just talking to Becks about the concert and I mentioned Steve, t he guy with the beard who came with, and she says "lol he thinks youre gay that you were hitting on him!" eojoipejgitreopoitopitwtitjitjt!!!!!!! Wut the FUCK!?! And to make things worse, this came up right after I was talking to her about how much I just LOVE shopping at Urban Outfitters and how we both ended up wearing something from UO to the concert....could I be any more flaming?!! Christ! I can't believe this! I mean, I'm striaght but...I dress nice, I'm polite and witty. I watch mtv alot...I mean, I tend to hang out with chicks more than dudes. I mean, I have guys friends but I prefer hanging out with girl. There is a little charm hanging from my cell phone but i mean...FUCK. I just realized I'm gay. I mean, I'm not attracted to men at all,but all the other signs are there!!!! How did this happen?! Dude, this isn't fair at all! Why!!?!...just...WHY?!!!!! I can't believe this!! U_U

	2008.05.04  00.33 I'm an addict for dramatics. Woke up/showed up so much earlier than I should've for the concert due to missinformation. Not that I'm complaining. I ended up seeing the Harold and Kumar sequel to kill time and grabbing some food with friends and calling people I should call more often. Decided pretty early on to ditch Looptopia and the idea of going to work with no sleep whatsoever the next morning. Enjoyed the Harold and Kumar movie alot. Although, during the movie, like halway through, there was an open seat on my left side, and this nerdy, obnoxious girl sat down and she was literally the only person in the entire theater who added her own little audio commentary every five seconds. It was so fucking annoying, I kept fantasizing about uppercutting her into the huge projection screen and then the audience applauding like mad. And then she kept talking in such a way, like she thought I might responde to her and we'd be like having a conversation or something since she was there alone. I ended up getting to the Metro early enough to get a spot right infront, touching the stage and everything! I kept lording it over Becca when she finally showed up,but I feel better that I did snag the spot considering how excited she was and all the stuff she gave up to go to the concert. I met her sister, Sarah for the first time which felt a little ackward. I mean, whenever I think of her I automically think of her artwork, so everytime I look at her, these images of flaming, puss-covered genitals and edgy looking-punk rock chipmunks and shit pop into my mind. Steve was super cool and his funky beard made him the coolest of our group by default. I was surprised by how cool everyone was. I mean, my relationship with Becks is pretty odd and explaining how we know each other is even odder and honestly, I expected the whole thing to be way more uncomfortable and Sarah to give me shit the entire time. The concert itself was AMAZING! Nothing but good memories. And I loved how like, "Danc-able+ Ghostland's music is. I couldn't help but dance to pretty much every song. That's seriously, the most dancing I've ever done in my life, atleast while enjoying myself. The chick behind had to have taken X before the show, I mean she HAD to. She was like dry humping the air, I think, way before the band even started playing and i kept trying to avoid eye contact during the concert because i could tell she wanted to like, dance and grind random dudes, and our entire section was like, all girls except for me and steve. And steve was stoic and stand offish about the whole thing. She ended up like, groping my back tugging on my hoody(tied around my waist) and then all three of the girls behind me started doing it, too. And I apparently not all groping is good groping. Sweaty, concert groping to strobe lights and techno-electronic rave songs sounds hot, but when it's your back getting groped, it just feels odd. Like, shoulder blades and shit aren't exactly pleasure points. Anyway, I shouted so much I literally couldnt shout without hearing my voice trail off really weakly. I was sure I would lose my voice by the end of the night but Becks ended up losing hers. It was awesome. I'm still prettypumped about the whole thing. I bought tshirts and shit and then found out the next day, a couple of my bills that subtract automatically from my account were taken out this weekend, too. So I pretty much bankrupted myself with my little Friday of fun. Well, atleast i didnt overdraw by accident again. Luckily. I'm definitely gonna do atleast one more concert this summer. It was really, too much fun.

	2008.05.02  02.48 If anyone is going to Looptopia Give me a call=> 708-271-5102 I'm still not positive on whether I'm going or not but if any of you guys are give me a call. I'm tired. Ridiculously so. But Becca wants to show up to that concert like 8 hours early, so I doubt I'm allowed to much sleep tonite. Yay. Oh. Some super cool stuff happened but I'm too distracted to write about it just now. Ciao

	2008.04.26  22.50 I totally forgot... about redoing my portfolio for acen. whoops. After this weekend, things should slow down a bit and I'll probably have more time to finish work that needs to be finished, organize and all that...wow! I am really tired. I actually contemplated not finishing that sentence because I was too sleepy and out of it. Well then...that's my cue. Gnight peoplez!

	2008.04.25  02.47 Why...?! For whatever reason, I was constantly hit on by gay men today. Seriously. Like 3-4 different guys in less than an hour. Ughh... For some reason when I keep trying to be spontaneous and kewl, it completely blows up in my face. And like, noone answers their cells today. :\ Music: The Quiet Things Noone Ever Knows- Brand New

	2008.04.23  18.52 So that Ghostland Concert is less than two weeks away... I should probably buy atleast ONE of their cds now, right? I would've if I'd had decent spending cash anytime during my drought from last month. And it doesn't help that I like most of the songs from their second to most recent cd and FYE only has songs from their most recent cd. But that's probably 70% of what they're going to pay at the concert anyways. I wonder how many of Becca's sister's friends are coming along. I hope it's not some giant group or something, because I'll have to be all extroverted and interesting and crap, which is just a whole lot of effort. Still since stupid Becca is too cool and has a job or whatever, I don't get to see or talk to her much anymore and the concert will be like a hang out marathon. Especially since she wants to show up like, eight hours in advance to make sure she gets in the front row. @_@ The concert is on the same day as Looptopia,too! So I really, hope I don't have work in the morning, even though it seems inevitable...I guess I'll try to nap-hardcore the night before and maybe right before the concert since I doubt I will sleep at all that night. Also, I started watching the Real World Hollywood, girlfriend! I'm already addicted! I'm glad I happened to watch tv on the day mtv whored out the first episode, because if I don't catch the season within the first few episodes, I ignore it completely until next year. Other things are happening,but I'm sick of typing. Music: Aquarius- Plumtree

	2008.04.14  15.12 Quote of the day remember those Loony Toons where Bugs Bunny was in Spain? i don't remember how he got there, wrong turn at Albuquerque or something. anyway, when Bugs was in Spain he wound up in a bull fight. and so there he is, playing matador, the bull is charging at him and he's got his red matador cape out. the hapless bull lunges at the cape with all his might, unaware that bastard bunny has a brick wall hidden behind it. i think this is a pretty good metaphor for what it's like being a romantic. I dun think I mentioned this yet,but Michael Cera is playing Scott Piglrim in the movie adaptation of the comic(Edgar Wright(Hot Fuzz, Shawn of the Dead is directing). So I finally got around to watching Superbad in celebration and curiosity of that announcement. I was only familiar with him from Juno and after hearing how he played pretty much the same character, like most fans I was doubtful that he could pull of this overconfident, charismatic, slacker-rockstar-goofball type of lead character. I have to say, despite both characters being similiarly ackward they were pretty damn different in my opinion. He was way more of a funny, smart alleck, despite being the sorta uptight one. Not to mention in all the outtakes Cera acts like a total goof(much closer to Scott's character). Anyway, he's a good actor and I have a bit more faith in him playing Scott well. He'll definetly be funny since he was the funniest thing in Juno to me anyways. Superbad by the way was great. Usually with movies, especially comedies I'm disappointed when everyone says it's good and I watch it, only to find out it's trash and everyone's opinion is not to be trusted. I went into this movie with a ton of hype around it, thinking it wasn't going to live up to it at all, but ended up laughing hysterically. I normally hate raunchy stuff and have a specific sense of humor but it was balanced enough so that even I enjoyed it. So...yeah. Music: Your Mouth Shoots Off-Plumtree

	2008.04.13  00.23 Saving money is a bitch I'm trying not to spend any money until I buy the suit I need for my cosplay next weekend. But it's PAINFUL! I need a haircut, moar green shirts, and some plumtree and ghostland cds dammit! anyway once that's out of the way, I still need to save money for the hotel room and acen and a little extra for the concert. Which won't be a problem since I've been picking up tons of extra days each week @ work,but it means I won't be able to spend money as reckless as I might want to until mid-May. I really wish I had bought a Zune when I had the extra cash. It's way more expensive buying music than it should be. Anyway, just want to remind myself to purchase "Predicts the Future" from Zunior.com as soon as I can since I've been literally searching high and low for that freakin' album since I checked out the YT videos. DeviantArt really needs to revamp their site. EDIT:screw it, I'm just gonna cave and buy that Plumtree album. It's under 9 bucks anyways. I doubt it'll make a difference. Music: BBBicycles-The Bicycles

	2008.04.10  17.42 Dear god I Hate Earbuds.. And yet they're the standard for headphones. I just broke my second pair of "travel" headphones that wrap around my ears so I'm reduced to using these shitty things for awhile when I go out into the world. I refuse to lug my DJ headphones around because they were a gift, and an expensive one to replace. A bunch of random people from work or skewl are going to acen again this year. I was explaining to some guy that I enjoyed Juno but was disappointed by it at the same time. I told him how I saw all the promos and trailers and thought "Oh my god! This chick is totally my type! If she had glasses with black frames she'd be perfect!" and all that. So I went into the moving expecting to really like the character and the movie and ended up not liking her dialogue or how she was handled in the movie. It just felt really unrealistic but that's another story... anyway he got a little hung up on the idea that juno was my "type" and I explained to him that I've been known to have a thing for quirky, neaurotic, sort of offbeat girls and he claimed that it made sense because I was a "free-thinker"? What does that even mean? I mean, the very idea that someone as complex as the great me could just be lumped into a stereotype like that. I'm totally original and unique and junk! One things for sure, I'm turned out a ton better than I should've. There's this guy who keeps complaining about the bad things that he's been through in his life or with his family to everyone. Which wouldn't be so bad, because he hasn't had things easy but he hasn't had them so much harder than anyone else either. Yet this guy basically goes "OH WOE IS ME" whenever he acts like a prick to people and demands that he is instantly forgiven because he had it so rough! Or whenever he makes a mistake he blames it on the way people treat him or something his parents did or whatever. You can't treat people like crap and then expect them to be your friend once you're in a better mood or make stupid decisions when everyone warns you not to then claim you didn't know any better. Music: Liar (it takes one to know one)- Taking Back Sunday

	2008.04.04  16.31 lol..guys. They are horny and junk. So I got home late last nite. Maybe around one in the morning. So as I had my late nite/early morning dinner I watched tv. I caught the g4 edition of that "Cheaters" show. I usually avoid the secondary edition because it's different and lacks Joey Grecko, who is awesome. But anyway, it was late and nothing was on. Anyways, on this episode a guy finds out his girlfriend is cheating on him with another girl! dun dun dun! Or Heeeyy*wink*? It was so funny to watch because the guy gets all pissed and annoyed saying how he would flatten the person she was cheating with if it was a guy. And then he starts to yell and goes "How could you do this...WITHOUT ME?!!" His attitude completely changes mid-tantrum from being pissed about being cheated on to being pissed that his wife didn't just invite him into a threesome! I could not stop laughing. Then when he starts to yell at the one whom his girlfriend cheated with and notices how attractive she is. He starts yelling "YOU'RE A VIRUS! You're a virus that destroys relationships! I don't care how attractive you are...and you look AMAZING!" lol. Right when he says it, he just sorta stops and stares at the chick oogling her amid this huge "tragic break up with his serious girlfriend". It was awesomely bad!xD He starts going on and on about how he's "cool with it" and he just wanted, nah WANTS to be included in this thing! After the show, she breaks it off with the girl and they resume their relationship. I bet the guy was totally pissed. In other news, I probably say this twice a week now,but I'm totally in love with Ultraneko on the YouTube right now. I'm probably gonna make a movie gushing about how amazing she is and I just wanted to give people the heads up to brace themselves for that. Seriously, she's pretty much perfect. Oh! I'm also in love with this indie pop/shoegazy band, The Teenagers! They were featured as the "Cd we're gay for" in Blender and I need moar music to draw to so I checked them out and yeah. Fucking amazing. I'm kinda disappointed I already commited to the concert with Becca since they're playing a concert like, two days before that in Chicago and I can't make both on my budget and schedule. Music: Starlett Johansen-The Teenagers

	2008.04.01  21.55 Metal Gear movie trailer I was checking out the Zelda movie trailers after seeing the april fool's one on IGN when I came across this. It was so awesome I decided to post it here. Anyway, I want to point out a few things: -From what I can tell, the trailer is in Japanese,but all the actors are chinese. Despite, Mei Ling being the only asian protagonist and her not appearing at all here, they did a really good job capturing the essence of the characters. Much better than that French MGS movie. The guy who played Snake specifically does an amazing job! Altho, Liquid does look disturbing similiar to Light Yagami from Death Note. -The trailer is based on the original PS1 MG game which defintely was the best so far as far as story and cast. Metal gear solid 2: Sons of Libery was horrible except for how silly and obviously Japanese pop cutlurish it felt: "there are bishies and jailbait love interest everywhere!" should've been the tag line. Snake Eater redeemed the series but still the bosses and minor characters werent nearly as memorable. -The chick who plays Meryl in the trailer is effing hot! SRSLY, nice...anyway, observant fans/perverts will notice she even does Meryl's trademark "Wiggle Walk" from Metal Gear Solid. It's times like this, I appreciate the level of attention to detail. -All the guns seem to be the exact replicas of the real ones from the game. Not to mention the costumes and color schemes seem to be perfect. And I enjoyed how Snake uses tricks he gets in later games like holding someone hostage here. -Anything with MGS involved can instantly become an awesome drinking game. Just drink every time someone dramatically screams "Snake". You'll be wasted in 5 seconds easily. -

	2008.03.30  18.16 Today Was grand! Well, not especially but today I'm easy. I dunno...maybe it's the great weather (FRIGGIN' FINALLY AMIRITE!?!) Maybe it's that after having seriously, mentally scarring, unbearable days back to back to back, you just appreciate mediocre days simply for going smoothly and showing signs of the entire universe and all the people in it not completely sucking? According to most people that I've been hanging out with recently, I am like this...Pretty Boy? One guy commented today that the main problem with me moving in with someone was because I give off this super sorta clean-cut and tidy possible neat freak vibe or something? It felt weird because I was like "..huh? Did I even iron these pants well? Well..did I iron them at all...?" then later he commented on how I was way too pretty to go to prison and how I'd basically be currency. lol. I dunno about all that but it's cute to get randomly hit on and be labelled like that considering how insecure and socially ackward I've been in the past. Oh and I finished Kingdom Hearts II (FRIGGIN' FINALLY AMIRITE?!!!) last nite. KH2's story and dialogue is GOD AWFUL but damn if the battle system isnt fun in a stylish/mindless brawler kinda way. It was a big improvement that they dropped all the crappy rpg and platforming elements and focuses on the one good thing from the first game, the frenzied battles. It made the game go from a pretty shallow action-rpg to a pretty deep beat em up game. And Sora, that final boss fight was awesome,but Riku totally carried your ass the entire time! I love the part when you deflect all the lasers! Omigawd so awesome! Yeha, today was neat. Music: Taper Jean Girl-Kings of Leon (luv this song!!!)

	2008.03.25  01.12 Didnt mention this in my last post but... One more REALLY good piece of news in anime and manga-dom...

	2008.03.24  03.40 Smirk LOL. Okay today was pretty cool. I forgot to mention this but I checked out North American Shonen Jump which usually sucks except for One Piece and the occasional decent chapter of Hikaru no Go or Yuyu Hakusho,but apparently they've made a good choice(or maybe the fans did since a "vote" was involved according to the article) and they're putting Slam Dunk! into the magazine as one of the monthly regulars!!!Motha friggin SLAM DUNK!! Altho, this means the GN's will probably come out ALOT slower and now all my hopes of a GREAT translation are dashed as Viz just loves to use "cool lingo' and hip "teen talk" with the conversations in their Shonen Jump series but this also means this series is going to be getting huge exposure to all the naruto kiddies and stuff. I just hope I dont see too many "Slam Dunk eez such a rip offa Naruto! Rukawa is a lame Sasuuke!!" especially since SD was released over a decade before Naruto... I really wonder what they're gonna do with the "Gori" thing. It was pretty much untouched in the original english version by another company and avoided controversy but SJ is MUCH more mainstream, not to mention Viz is known for editing ANYTHING that might be considered somewhat offensive or controversial by anyone, ever. Please dont let this be another One Piece, Viz. I actually want to buy this series just like OP ut if you eff it up with your arbitrary name changes and edits, I'm not giving you a dime!

	2008.03.21  01.22 ***Sigh**** Today was horrible. The worst day I've had in atleast 4 years...maybe ever? It's actually too bad and personal for me to even describe what happened to me,but yeah...things happened to me today that I pretty much never wish happen to anyone and I kind of feel how I hope noone I know ever has to feel,but I mean, I guess things could be worse? I could be dead or...well things could probably only be worse if I was dead or seriously crippled or had a disease or something. I'm really surprised by how much hate people have for each other and even more how much apathy there is among everyone. People dont really care that you're hurt, they just want you to stop hurting in front of them because it's making them uncomfortable. It sucks because the few people I could talk to would end up feeling so bad it wouldnt help me feel better. They'd just end up getting really upset and bursting into tears and I wouldnt feel better but they'd end up feeling worse than I do, and I'd feel guilty and end up trying to calm them down and I dunno. I guess I feel a little better knowing that but not much. I guess that whole, what doesnt kill you makes you stronger mantra is true,because at this point, I tend to feel pretty fearless and carefree. sigh...the only thing that keeps me from bitching anymore about this is thinking about worrying about the shit that Ivan is going through and if he's still alive. So as long as I'm living, and not trudging through a warzone everyday, waking up with the fear that I might get blown up or shot in the head today, I guess I better suck it up. Yeah, I guess as bad as today was, I'm not seperated from civilization and I dont have to live in a warzone everyday so I'm gonna suck it up. I'm not homeless or anything either, so yeah...sucking it up, I guess. Even though it's really hard today. I cant think of anything really good in my life right now but atleast it's not in a constant state of horrible?

	2008.03.18  23.22 Cosplay Journal 1/2 SO I basically knocked out 60% of the stuff I needed today in like, two store trips. -I got a mirror dogtag thing from Spencers in Chicago Ridge for Junpei's dogtag. -Got the hat made at this place there that puts designs on hats and stuff! It came out pretty friggin boss,too! I like that the design is big enough to be seen from far away and looks so perfect it basically seems like I bought the hat that way. I wanted the blue in the logo's backround to blend into the hat but it kinda came out too bright. I might get it redone but it actually looks alittle cooler that way. Anyhoo... -Got the belt chainy things that hang from his pants from Hot Topic. Actually I found one with a belt clip on thing EXACTLY like the one in JUnpei's artbook pic but the chain wasn't right. So I found another one that looked exactly like the chain and armed with my knowledge that EVERYTHING from Hot Topic breaks super easily, I bought both, went home, took them apart and built the perfect replica! I felt very MCGuyver after it and proud! Even tho I'm not doing any sewing, I'm still doing alot of work getting it all together! =D -Got this sexy danish blue dress shirt for the costume from Sears on State street. It was like a $40 shirt but they have a sell for dress clothing right now, so I got it for twenty! It actually is a pretty snazzy shirt,too! I'd wear it casually...well not casually since it's a formal shirt,but umm...you know what I mean! -Last night I ordered my "evoker" from ebay.com. It's a Airsoft, Silver Beretta Pistol replica. Looks really similar to the evoker from the game,too. I might have to strip the scope,but hopefully it's detachable. It looks detachable... *****Things I still need to pick up. -A similar belt. Or atleast a belt with an oversized, really gaudy, oval shaped buckle. -The suit to be altered into the Gekko School Uniform. This is basically all I have left but it's the most important! I really want to find one similar in look and color, which is difficult since suits are expensive and it's that semi-weird greyish black color. Shouldnt be too hard to find tho. Me and Jesse might check out J and K or whatever the place he was talking about that has super cheap suits. I was alittle nervous about doing the clothes shopping since I'm a bit color blind. I kept thinking I would pick out some color and show it to Roci and she'd say "this is supposed to be blue...it's purple!" or something. But I think it turned out well. Once I get the suit to her, I'm pretty much done and the rest is in her hands. All I can do is get my hair cut and hope she does a good job. I kind tried to avoid doing anything and just comission this,but in the end I ended up doing all the leg work and picking out stuff and it was actually pretty fun. Still it's kinda emarrassing going through clothing stores, peeking at little anime books and stuff.

	2008.03.17  22.05 oh, lucky you! Season Five of Peep Show has yet to start, and despite divx's stage 6 site(which hosted pretty much every episode of every season at one time) being taken down, Youtube has all the episodes uploaded! So you still have time to catch up on this show before season five starts, which should be soon. As far as British comedies go, I don't get why the Office gets so much critical praise. I watch and enjoy both Brit and American version but Peep Show is probaly the funniest sitcom still running on tv in general! Anyway, this entire entry is a thinly veiled reminder to me to rewatch the older episodes before the fifth season starts so I remember what was going on and who everyone was. And I just don't pimp this show enough. =P Music: In Over My Head-sum41

	2008.03.13  02.30 This is a Dark Day for Wes... Either me or someone else deleted "Before Sunrise" from my DVR block. As longtime Wesley fans know, Before Sunrise and the sequel, Before Sunset are my current top two favorite movies of all time. I kinda get the feeling I deleted it because I didnt want anyone @ home giving me a hard time for watching "weird", pseudo-european, independant romantic comedies. Speaking of movies, the only person's death who I think about and fear on a semi-regular basis is Woody Allen. I became a big fan of his a couple years back after lying in my room half asleep while his movie, Zelig, was playing in the background. I told a couple of my friends this story...I laughed myself completely awake! After getting over my initial shock that something that edgy was playing on PBS, I realized it was by that guy, Woody Allen. I wasn't really familiar with him but I remembered catching the tail end of his "sex" movie(I think it's called: SEX:everything you always wanted to know but were afraid to ask) and having an identical reaction. Basically, I laughed to the point that I was in tears a few times throughout the movie. Ironically, I remember my mother raving that Woody Allen was a genius when seeing him on tv once. Not that she is or ever was a fan of his. I think, it was just her general hive-mentality coupled with the fact that she was a teenager in the 70's when his movies were at the peek of their popularity or atleast when Annie Hall was released, his most successful film. Well, the big deal about all this is that Woody Allen is the only living person who I am a somewhat, diehard fan of, who is well into his senior years. Which means, barring any weird accidents...Woody Allen is the first of my heroes who will die in my lifetime. This disturbs me especially with Allen, because of his insane work schedule, creating a new movie every year. Even though, most of his older films, are the ones I tend to love and associate with my adoration of him, I always kind of fear that he'll die before making some defining masterpiece that would've been the greatest work of his career or something. I dunno. It's an odd feeling. Alot of his stuff has had either a profound or theraputic effect on me and to imagine watching the "final" one and there never being another one after that or having that same feeling is really upsetting? Disappointing? Unnerving? Music: What I'm Looking For-Brendan Benson

	2008.03.12  01.44 SO yeha, Pit is awesome Played Smash Bros. Brawl @ Roci's. Pit seems ridiculously awesome because he can fly! In a game where the oject is to not fall off things, he can FLY!!! Anyway, I went to check out the Bleach, Naruto and Inuu Yasha halloween costumes she made for her kids to see if I should ask her to do my cosplay one. They were ridiculously good! They looked better than the average cosplay even! Apparently, she's seriously into fashion design and sewing and all that. She agreed to do my costume and said it would be pretty easy and quick to do, I just need to find all the stuff in the right colors so she can alter it,because making it from scratch would be tons of work. So as soon as I get the money, (which could be 2-3 weeks from now the way things're going!) I'm going to be running around trying to find a cheap suit in the right color. EVen tho it's a pretty easy job, the fact that I need to buy an actual suit to alter is going to be the EXPENSIVE part of the whole dealy.Meh...I hope it works out tho. I really wish I had saved more cash before i got suspended from work. I hate being forced to last minute everything like this. SUpposidly there's this hat dealy in Ridge Mall that does designs on hats or something, too, which would be an easy way to get the hat out of the way.

	2008.03.10  19.12 so yeha... I've been trying really hard to be a reliable person. Every year I start out working really hard and trying to schedule my time better, succeed where I failed in the previous year and generally 'get it together',but eventually I always end up missing school or work, forgetting I was supposed to spend time with a friend or had a date with some girl, show up late to a job interview or whatever. Maybe it's the lack of car or the insomnia or maybe it's just me. I dunno. But every year I start off really strong and really committed and end up burning out. I've been getting really frustrated and upset it recently because it seems to be happening alot recently. I want to be someone who can be completely reliable to the people that need me,but things just don't seem to be turning out that way for me. Almost as bad as the feeling of being helpless as things happen around you is the feeling of trying to change things and become a better person and not only failing but people around you just not seeing or caring that you're trying really hard. Besides that...I stopped watching that silly "Moment of Truth" show on fox because...I dunno, it seemed mediocre. But I just saw that super controversial episode clip and wow...that show should literally be called "Americans have no shame and want money" or something. Wow...just wow..Fox. Also, apparently there's gonna be a Family Guy spinoff starring CLEVELAND! That's right not Quagmire or anything resembling a slightly popular character...Cleveland!