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	2009.09.27  00.37 friends only from now on

	2009.08.26  20.27 SEPTEMBER 18 i am now more excited about the aforementioned date than my own birthday or xmas. unless i'm getting that peep show mega boxset with every season - and a british dvd player since it's region coded... oh god, she is just so beautiful. and she doesn't even know it - probably no one's every told her before...i should tell her! SHIT!!NO! i can NEVER tell her! if she realizes, i'm finished!! LOL! oh god, mark... finally the new series of peep show will air! i will have a tv show to watch again! good timing, too! i was getting bloody tired reading words and thinking thoughts. i think i watched every episode like, 6 times + all 3 series of that mitchell and webb look while waiting for them to stop postponing the latest series! >: i was watching that guy richie movie, rocknrolla, the other night and i flipped when SUPER HANS was a minor character in it! lol it was so totally unexpected, i think i literally said "super hans??" when he appeared on screen. i'm trying to plan this LAZERNITE with a few friends. like, i want to do lazer tag and maybe lazer bowling and maybe an imax movie or something with the effect of being futuristic and lazer-y? the radio dept. is coming dangerously close to becoming my favorite band. lesser matters(radio dept.) and up against the legends(the legends) are definitely, definitely my favorite 2 cds of all time, as of now. new king city book by brandon graham are OUT! JESUS, fall, why are you so immediately better than summer was?? my friends are pretty darn hilarious sometimes. those basterds. end of entry. Mood: anxious Music: ewan-the radio dept.

	2009.08.21  03.08 you waste your thoughts on this earth girl... i figured i'd upload that here, as well. i did mention that show and probably something about molly being THE COOLEST GIRL IN ANIMATED FORM EVER OMFGGGGGs so it's relevant. also, i had to painstakingly fill in the black underneath her left arm, so i need the mileage. and yeah, upped the dpi and it looks much nicer now. now i just need to figure out the right size to post comic pages. i've been experimenting when simpler, webcomic-y styles, but it all just looks too manga-esque. i'm not doing the webcomic in a simple style - the opposite since i need to really tone up my art muscles and it's a good chance to work out. i've been listening to soviet kitsch all day - okay, the past few hours i've been home and on the comp, but SERIOUSLY--oh.my.god. i heard it was pretty good, but thought it would be super michelle brance, moody teeny bopper girlified piano whineage, buttttt it's AWESOME! i think i will actually buy the damn cd now! it's really weird, non-folk, piano, falsetto, impromptu lyrical odd...odd.. popish music. i can't totally explain it. i definitely didn't expect BEATBOXING!!! i'd definitely recommend checking it out. it was a total surprise when i found myself enjoying every single damn song on the cd. i found myself giggling and shocked at the mere idea of this russian hipster lady singing lyrics like 'can you help a brotha out?' in a really manic falsetto style, too. really quirky, eclectic, stylish, endearing little cd - soviet kitsch. i can't believe corey sees me and lina about to become a couple and -even tho i asked him like 5 times on the way to pick up beck and he replied 'no' - he chooses now to tell me he's trying to get with her. wtf. i had this long, epic talk with vivi and i had decided to be a couple with her TODAY and corey couldn't mention days ago when she is literally saying 'if you want to get with me(as a couple) just let me know. let's talk about it...cause it feels like you're waiting for me to make the move" or whatever. i guess it doesn't matter. but hopefully he will actually do it. as long as he actually makes the move and doesn't make me step aside only to drop the ball himself, i will be happy with this. i'm not even annoyed. i'm blogging about this to show how little it effects me whatsoever. don't even care. at all. nah, if she really likes him...i am so happy for the guy. i'm just a little sad for wesley. ;_; Mood: amused Music: chemo limo - regina spektor

	2009.08.16  01.16 okay, so i'm bored and can't sleep now. so before i call someone or fall asleep drawing, i thought i might as well try this: it'll be like a meme that i just made up right now. YOU CAN DO IT, TOO! i was going to watch some anime and then i realized, i haven't really found a series that grasped my attention at all in the past few months - that's pretty pathetic, japan. maybe i'm burned out or maybe there just isn't a lot of quality stuff right now? or maybe i'm just missing it somehow? anyway, i've been making mostly personal entries and there are at least a few people on my f-list purely because of mutual fandom or interest in anime/manga or something. so i thought i'd make a top five(or ten depending on how tired my fingers get..) list of shows you might have missed, but should really watch. seriously. right this second. i probably mentioned one or two of these a few million times here, and you probably scoffed and blew them off all 'whatever, wes'. now is the time to redeem yourself. or at least after you hear WHY they're so good you might give one a shot now. i'll keep this short. this is my attempt at a nenena-ish entry. 1,2,3.. ( HERE WE GO ) feel free to share any good series i might have missed and what they're all about. Mood: geeky Music: very loud-the shout out louds

	2009.08.12  03.00 imeem is down for maintenance?????? then why am i even ON the internet?! it's pretty much just an elaborate jukebox for me at this point - i just come here for the music. and now...no music?! pfft...PEACE OUT THIS MOTHA ..okay, i guess i'll do a few google searches, read my email, and watch 2 episodes of peep show, but then...GONE! for the second time in less than two weeks someone demanded that i stop being optimistic because 'it will just end in me getting really depressed when i inevitably don't get anything i want anyway'. then i hit him with a wrench. stop bringing me down and i'll stop swinging the wrench! how difficult is that to understand?? jesus... hopefully i'll have a ton of art and comic progress stuff up here by tomorrow. it'll probably get a better scanning job and turn out a lot nicer this time. yeah, it'll probably be fine this time.. -clutches wrench and looks around- Mood: tired Music: chameleon-broken social scene

	2009.08.09  00.02 HEY. (god, my scanner sucks. this is after adjusting values in PSP and sharpness! jesus..maybe i should've raised the dpi?) Beka Kenny D. is a very cool chick. today is her day of birth. so this is cause for momentous celebration. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, BECKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg ppl should wish her a happy birthday even if they don't know her. maybe you might know her one day when she's rich and famous or something, and you can be all "we're old friends! remember when i wished you happy birthday!?" PS. if you're def going to see GLO again this year, i can come get you super early so you can hang with that linda chick or whatever you want this time all day, man. ALL WFFING DAY~ Mood: calm Music: love and mathematics-broken social scene

	2009.08.06  20.47 RUM TEE HEE this has been one of the heaviest, most introspective weeks evers. with me and jose having these long subsequent talks about everything i've been doing and why i've been throwing our friendship away to not being friends with chrissy at all anymore. and basically realizing i've said some reeeeeally dick things to one person in particular, to realizing how many chances i had to be happy and do what i wanted that i just threw away completely because i was afraid of uncertainty or being judged and wanted to do things on my own terms. i have been a jerk to a handful of people i really care about lately. and i'm glad so many of them might can call me an asshole, but still tell me what a good guy i really am in the same conversation. i'm glad they know that isn't the real me and i've just been moody lately with the world caving in on top of me every week. now that everything's in perspective, i hope i can go back to--no, become a much better me. i'm really lucky that the people who care about me are so cool and understanding. i was being a big baby. i promise i'll grow up a bit now. i guess i just need a hug sometimes. i love this video. it feels so warm and familiar...then i realized it might be because it's shot in chicago and i recognized a few of the locations! the song helps, too. :3 art post is next. anticipate it. Mood: drained Music: rum hee-shugo tokumaru

	2009.08.02  21.43 i'm a romantic, but never pearly white... i was pleased with a lot of my friends this weekend. i guess i was just relying on the wrong ones with krissy. corey and john are awesome - it goes with out saying at this point. jose is omgggg LEGENDARY!!! such a good guy. i can't believe how sweet he and ivan are.. i really love those guys. he made the trip back really heavy, but really swell. also, i had been waiting all weekend and finally got to smoke. i don't like it so much anymore. :\ and yeah, tom is cool as always. even mike was surprisingly cool this weekend and didn't really freak out. when i tossed my hoodie on and walked into my place, i laughed. it totally smells like perfume and bek-funk! EVEN THE HOOD~ lollerskates! Mood: awake Music: in a cave-tokyo police club

	2009.07.31  20.15 bitching bitching bitching lafjaakfklaffkj!!! >_< that's the last time i trust anyone to do something without me holding their hand ...bleh. it's been a really stressful week slash month. i'm glad july is finally gone. maybe august will be better. i can't believe how many people i learned to never trust in the past two weeks alone. a lot of things turned out crappyy. a lot of crappy people. even my haircut is...crap. it's like a tattoo that won't go away for a week to remind me of a shit week. /bitching i guess i just have to try and make the best of things nothing else i can do now Mood: distressed Music: nursery academy-tokyo police club

	2009.07.23  16.12 FML So last night, i decided to line-dry a few of (possibly) my favorite t-shirts. One shirt I bought recently and a lot of people seemed to like it, had no washing machine specific instructions. so i decided to ebb on the side of caution and dry it the old-fashioned way instead of letting it anywhere near a dryer. "I will wear this shirt always and forever!" i cried./foreboding so anyway, (stupidly) before everything was 100% dry, it was getting late and i decided everything was close enough to dry and not drippy or sopping or anything. so i took my 3 FAVORITE t-shirts down and folded them into my dresser all in a neat little pile and beaming 'ahh! clean! i will treasure these amazing examples of apparel for twenty plus fortnights!!" And then today... apparently, that really blue weezer tee, whenever it gets even slightly wet...BLEEDS BLUE DYE all over EVERY FUCKING THING!! it looks like light blue paint dripped all over my 3 light-coloured shirts! WTFFFFFFFFFFF!!! are you kidding?? anyway, i panicked and immediately went to hand scrubbing stains to see if they would come out. my BRAND NEW shirt got the worst of it. the stains are mostly not noticable from far away, but you can still see some light blue splots in places if you're up close. FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFf it's salvagable and wearable, but now i really need to find a replacement - my clothing must be immaculate. i can't wear it to anything where i need to look presentable, i think. even though it's barely noticable. still, it's THERE and eventually, in good lighting, it would be. luckily, none of them were expensive, but unluckily, inexpensive is still too expensive for me at the moment. also, i def have to replace at least one of them quickly since i bought it at this obscure fucking place that could easily run out for good or get shut down tomorrow. all my video games burning up in a fire would be less disappointing than this. i could actually, easily replace those(eventually). too many clothing companies discontinue things and then you're just fucked. i'd actually started buying an extra shirt whenever i found one i really liked in case something like this happened, because i've had someone spill wine or something or bleach my shirt irresponsibly and ruin it. then i've gone to the exact same store and found out they don't carry it anymore and no one does and i'd just have to go on with my life...lacking the best shirt EVER. i'm a little afraid to check the rest of my stuff, because there might be other things that got ruined. lol maybe this is just a TAD petty or whatever. But i think anyone who's ever torn their favorite pair of jeans beyond repair or lost jewelry on the subway or whatever knows exactly what i'm going through. it's like finding out your absolute favorite show has been canceled! ...my hands smell like tide now. mmmmm anyway, i'll try another wash in a bit and see if the situation improves. the stains are so light, it feels like something might be able to remove them. Mood: crushed Music: the crystal cat- dan deacon

	2009.07.20  15.43 Christian Bale my equilibrium still feels completely off. it has since saturday when i finally got to sleep at home in my own bed. my brain still doesn't feel like my brain. my toes still don't feel like my toes. i didn't get a chance to mention this, but the paper heart screening was fun. the movie was really good. i liked it. i didn't expect the level of plot and drama it had, but it was a pleasant surprise imho. i expected a total "funny documentary" thing, but a lot of it was just the relationship between michael cera and charlyne yi and it was pretty realistic and the ending was realistically uneven and non-total, magical happy endingish which was enjoyable. the focus of the interviews seemed odd...i mean, all the stories seemed to be SUPER pro-romance and the common them with all the interviewees seemed to be a guy who had this massive crush on some girl, and she didn't like him that much or at all, but he just kept trying and trying and trying and eventually her friends forced her to go out with him or the girl did it for a free meal or something and slowly started to realize she did like the guy and then they got married for a bajillion years. and has a bajillion kids. and lived in a shoe. but despite cera eventually growing on yi and them starting to date the same way. her character and her cynical stance on love and relationships doesn't change. the interviews seem to point out how love is a lot harder to get than it appears, but it can eventually work, while the story of the cera and yi seems to really hammer home that it's possible to be happy in a relationship, but the whole 'love' thing is maybe impossible to ever totally get right - one person will always be more into you than you're into them or vice versa and everyone needs to stop this dreamy, fairy tale movie stuff. if you just tried to be in a good relationship and not love each other, it'd all be simpler and more relationships would work out, etc. lol and despite such a harsh, cynical(albeit realistic) sort of message the movie works as this insanely cute date movie. that's why i liked it in the end, it was a really cute movie about dating without really throwing pixie dust and rainbows all over relationships. and ironically the 'scripted' relationship between cera and yi seemed possibly the most down to earth and natural one in the movie(well they're dating in real life, but still..). also, it was free for me, so booyah. i like how after the movie, during the Q&A charylne yi said she was really confused about how to be happy in relationships after high school when she started actually dating, because everything she learned about romance and love was from movies and songs and stuff. and all that stuff never works or happens in real life. so she got pretty ardent about doing a romantic movie that didn't perpetuate that unrealistic standard of romance. lol! because, once again, i went into that movie expecting just shenanigans and goofy anecdotes about prom nights and first dates by seth rogen or whoever. also, every obnoxious, snot-nosed, hipster d-bag and yuppie bottom feeder seems to be a wannabe director/screenwriter. and when you go into anything that hasn't been advertised every second on every channel, they NEVER FUCKING SHUT UP ABOUT IT!! if a hear one more 19 year old with a fucking scenester haircut and movie logo t-shirt talk about the scrips they're working on and how they're probably gonna sell three of them before they're 21 and brag about who they might put in the movie, i am going to fucking kill everything around me! even the plants and inchworms will not be safe from my explosion of wrath. so yeha, guess i'll try and draw a little or read or something to regain my equilibrium. it still feels off. Mood: awake Music: cutdown - matt & kim

	2009.07.18  23.28 So last nite.. i got so annoyed that i smoked nearly an entire pack of (someone else's)cigarettes. and i don't even smoke. lol i don't remember what mellowed me out, but eventually i had a good time. it helped that the number of ladies vastly outweighed the number of guys for the first half and the decent-looking guys didn't show up until much later in the night. handsome tom kind of clung to his gf and stayed away from everyone during that time, too. so for this huge chunk of time, i was the 'tom' of the party and straight guys kept complementing how cool my shirt was or how "nice my hair looks like that". girls kept asking hugging me and mentioning how they knew me from so-and-so's facebook or myspace page and pulling me back and forth from group to group. and i never expected to flirt so much with bakeshope katie, but we spent most of her time there flirting with each other -- another girl who mentioned us being facebook friends(wth?). does facebook friendship constitute some SPECIAL level of intimacy i'm not aware of??lol 'how can you talk to every girl here, but me? we're friends on faceboooook!' or 'you have to come outside with me, we're friends on faaaaceboooook!' from at least 3 different girls on 3 different instances. i had no idea friend request/approval was such a serious commitment. i should stop doing it so casually. lol P: it was flattering and my ego grew massively because of it, but all the affection seemed kind of wasted on me. i'm really not looking to hook up with anyone or date or anything right now...i was pretty determined to leave immediately or mope around and bitch to mike, but right away that monica girl pulled me outside, put a cigarette in my mouth, lit it, and said, "so is it krissy? becca? which one has the hot lips? the cute voice? the one you have sooo much in common with?? which one is the girl of your dreams?" me:huh? monica:which one are you SMITTEN with? there are pretty girls here and you have this 'oh, but none of them are her, so i'll just brush them away if they try and kiss me' vibe. me:(laughing) maybe shooing, not 'brushing'. brushing would be kind of rude. Monica: you seem pretty laid back now, but outside, before the party, you were seemed annoyed and we heard you talking to someone on the phone outside tom's apartment saying "krystal alot, becca a lot, FUCK YOU a lot, and two hours a lot. obviously a really laid back guy like you wouldn't get that upset over anything that didn't involve some girl that you were pretty into." me: ha ha ha! no, i don't like krystal. i'm actually pretty furious at her right now. becca is ...okay, i guess. she's cute, i guess. heh. -throws arm around me as we sit on the curb/doorway thing- monica: so let's hear it, man! i've got some relationship drama with this guy i know that i'm totally into. you go first! me:-laughing uncontrollably now- um...I'd definitely need a whole 'nother cigarette to go into THAT story. yeah, that is definitely a two-cigarette story. -monica flicks open cigarette box in my direction- monica: let's DO THIS! i think it was that conversation that made me stay at the party(and the free cigarettes and cool night air). i didn't really even tell her anything except how i couldn't believe krissy would do that. and how i wasn't pissed because she didn't do what i said, it's because she told me she would and completely fucking abandoned me on a whim -- without remorse. it's like anyone who trust her and depends on her for anything, she completely betrays and fucks over at the last minute and...i really didn't expect her to do that to me...again. i just kept going 'we're like bestfriends! i never thought she'd do this -- not to ME. jesus...REALLY??' i mean, i told her i (platonic) loved her and meant it -- and i hate everyone. but i don't think i could be friends with anyone who just doesn't care like that. she didn't even answer her phone and try to explain or apologize or...anything. she just 'oh, well i dunno what he's gonna do, but fuck that, man. his problem. whatever. i'm not even going to WARN HIM that i'm not going now.' and after that, to not even call and give me a reason or say she was sorry or anything...fuck. so many things could've gone wrong without her showing up and made the day even worse and she didn't even check to make sure i got there or home or died, or anything. she just plugged her ears and hid in a corner while i was fucking drowning. Mood: apathetic Music: i'll kill her -soko

	2009.07.15  19.30 oceans won't freeze so loosen your heart so here's how my weekend looks so far. THURSDAY: -cash check -hang out a bit and eat downtown with krissy before heading to paper heart screening (we always seem to settle on sushi or icecream, but never one the same night obviously) -hopefully take pics of the Q&A afterwards -possibly drink afterwards -talk about how much i want to see bruno but haven't gotten around to it yet FRIDAY: -Thomas "GOODY" Goodman is having some sort of soiree idono even know where since it's summer so he must not be in his apartment across from UIC anymore. i have no idea where this is, but i'll probably go. krissy will almost def come with - unless she's working - and i think i'm going to try really hard to talk becca into going. which is, admittedly weird, since we don't talk as much as we used to recently and blah blah. but still, almost exactly a year ago, i drunk dialed her and put her on the phone with tom during one of his parties! i want to see if either of them remembers it!!XDD -probably drinking during. -b4 this, if krissy isn't working, i'll try and forcibly make her go to that used bookstore with me to sell a bunch of old manga that i've needed to sell for pretty much a year now. yeah. TODAY: -nomming pixxa -calling mike to figure out what's happening friday and where - possibly apologizing for backing out of 6flagz this weekend...well, i never agreed, but he seems to just EXPECT me to do everything with him besides his gf. -watching that mitchell and webb look -about to listen to adze of penguin some more! omg...i was surprised how GOOD that cd was -then getting back to drawing. i think i need more multiliners. i overuse 005 and underuses 01 apparently i needed to wake up the other night, but there was this richard pryor special i either hadn't seen or had seen before and needed to watch again, so i stayed up and watched it, totally ignoring the amount of sleep required AND I REGRET IT NOT! it was the sunset strip one with the red suit and golden shoes. i want to post YT video to the bit about love because it;s so funny and...and TRUE that it's painful to watch. but this entry is already longer than it should be. http://www.facebook.com/home.php?ref=home#/topic.php?uid=2280075567&topic=9750 ^lol at this peep show thread from the fb community and one person simply replying 'wesley tisdale is a genius' and nothing more. i guess my quips and snarky references were especially good that time jacob moved to california, and then came back bitching about how much it sucks, too.that's four in a row...my future there will surely be amazing. P: Mood: chipper Music: i'll kill her-soko

	2009.07.11  17.00 SO LAME oh, so KRYSTAL wins ticket to the private screening of Paper Heart, but I DON't?? wtf kinda karma is THAT? she doesn't even know who/what the movie IS! she just entered because I told her to. now i pretty much HAVE TO go with her when I was hoping for the both of us to be able to bring our own guest. Krishna, Yahweh, Buddha, and Jesus...thanks again for ruining all my plans, guys. this is because i'm an unbaptized heathen non-believer, isn't it? i bet they just picked krystal, because it's a romantic comedy movie and she's a girl.how unprogressive of you, Charlyne Yi! in other news, i guess i get to go to the chicago screening of paper heart with the star+director Q&A. i've never been to one of those, should be cool. it would've been a lot cooler if we'd BOTH gotten tickets and could've brought whomever we wanted. bah! Mood: shocked Music: graveyard girl - m83

	2009.07.09  00.40 FOR THE WORST THING THAT COULD POSSIBLY HAPPEN, THIS IS GOING EXTREMELY WELL drew a crappy comic really quick to make up for me promising to post art, but still not finishing up my character designs. i actually did them, then threw them out because i decided to tweak the style to fit the concept better. i'll have them next time. but until then...YAY LETS HAVE FUN ( i drew it just for YOU <3 <3 <3 omgblush ) holy shit. my head is pounding - possibly because of the ink...but i opened my window so the fumes really shouldn't have gotten into my nose. that being said, inking brush-pens are fucking awesome. even though i barely used them and wasn't really 'trying'(actually i was trying really hard to make it look cursory and simple like a webcomic...lol), it just FEELS BETTER to use brushes as opposed to pens. i really need to buy ink and use nibs and dip and ink old-fashioned style. it feels so much better and the control you get is way superior to pens. even my BADASS MOFO COPIC set. and those pens will pretty much fuck up all other inking/comic pens on the market. god. my PC's scanner is shit, too. jesus...someone tell me how hard this is to read/see and i'll adjust accordingly. or at least do that next time. it looks blurry to me, but i'm not wearing meh glasses. hmm..maybe i'll adjust it anyway. ugh..my head. still need to call krissy and make sure she's okay for julie's thing saturday - don't really want to go alone to that... still need to haircut. still need to find markers or buy new ones. still need to finish those books. GOD WHAT HAVE I ACTUALLY FINISHED oh, maybe i'll upload that panel thing i did. that came out kinda pretty as far as practice goes...lol so, um, yeah...good night, ladies and gentlemen. EDIT:lol! i totally forgot to mention how me and bryan lee o'malley had this little argument all over his LJ and the scott pilgrim forum. that was cool. he made a thread singling me out all "KEIICHI-CHAN YOU DICK" and such. it was awesome.XDD Mood: bitchy Music: banquet- bloc party

	2009.07.02  23.49 SEE YOU ON THE MOON drawing post next time -crosses fingers-. comic is far from ready, but i guess i'll post some production stuff or notes and character designs - things like that. i know the world...nay, the universe is waiting on the edge of their seats(moon seats?), but i've been working on a lot of other art stuff and other life things in general. i keep getting invited to do things for the 4th, but i dunno. it doesn't feel right without ivan and the annual fireworks war. speaking of that, might be moving to california, unfortunately. i dunno. i hate california, but i do have a place to stay, rent free...so i made just cave in and move. at the very least, i'll probably spend next summer in california. i hate the sun, i can't swim, and i don't need to tan. it's really just my own personal hell-state. also, everyone i know from cali or who moved there is a complete tool and really obnoxious - this can't be mere coincidence. roxann and ivan complain about it so much, but then bookend that sentiment with 'and you should move out there with us'. but without ivan around, i do tend to slide down the misanthrope slope and avoid that entire group. i really don't want to try moving in with another couple without a girlfriend, though. i've been through that minefield before, and you just need things to be evened out... THIS: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P4DBkjxajrY&feature=fvw fairy Tail anime and new series of peep show pushed back to the fall. which is amazing, but i'd rather have that stuff now. all i've got to watch now is rachel maddows and the real world. also, i keep getting invited to do stuff on July 11th specifically but i'm def leaning toward julie's party. going from depression to partying with goody seems like i bad idea. i'll party too hard to numb the pain and do something crazy again(but wicked fun)... that one girl keeps get antsy if she doesn't hear from me for a few days and i'm supposed to call her already, and there is this other girl, but...i really don't care. not in the mood right now for this at all. i should date her. i should just acquiesce and date her and be in a husk relationship and be a king boyfriend and blow my fucking brains out in disgust at myself. everything else is going well. so maybe not? :3 still, tempting... i need to get rid of that dead leaves action figure thing and get a new calender. recommendations? nouvelle vague has such a smooth voice, despite all the cigarettes. lol i like her duet with julie delpy. i liked forgetting sarah marshall so much more the second time around. i was really on the fence about it the first run through despite the awesome dracula puppet musical. there are actually a ton of movies i want to see out/coming out now. D: none of them are transformers 2. this entry ends noooooooooooooow. Mood: calm Music: heart of glass- nouvelle vague

	2009.06.25  01.24 "we can see it in your booooones~" So I only post on the acen forums every so often. But apparently, I post enough to keep causing girls to get these really intense crushed on me (why...exactly...?). I guess she was especially passionate about, because she semi-started an entire topic centered around whether or not she should confess...her..feelings? And then the aim conversations with her and her friends...at least she...seems nice? But really, should I date someone right now, at this moment(the answer is no) even if they didn't live in WISCONSIN(she does)? ugh...what a mess. Still, I guess it's really cute...and I guess it's really sweet. curse my charms? my digital...charms? But Liking someone without even meeting them, and putting so much effort into this, and thinking so much about it...just seems really intense. I've been working on the web comic, but then I decided to revamp and develop a slightly different style for it, so...need to redo character designs a bit to fit that. If it's not too hot to stay inside and finish that tomorrow morning, I'll probably do that and scan in sometime when I get home. If not, maybe by the end of the week. So next update should be an art one. ANTICIPATE IT! Apropos, Ellen Page's new shoes really amuse me. :3 "ohhh~ ohhh~! what an awesome job..." Mood: confused Music: Your English is Good-Tokyo Police Club

	2009.06.09  01.09 ha ha! I am just seeing this! ^It's Corey and John in their Bubblegum Crisis stuff from last year. I still can't believe John actually made a giant, robotic exoskeleton in his spare time!XDD I think it was his first "serious" cosplay, too! such an awesome job! Also, his first, but unfortunately, not his last crossplay! (..yes, ANOTHER video.) Mood: impressed Music: Do Me-Loveninjas

	2009.06.07  00.33 SWOONS~ I hate to make consecutive video entries, but my plans fell through tonight(both A and B). So things're kinda dull. I guess tomorrow, hopefully the weather will be good enough to drag myself and Troutman to Jessica's music...recital thing? Should probably check when that is tomorrow...yeah. Mood: peaceful Music: She's a Bad Mama Jama-Carl Carlton

	2009.06.05  21.00 LOL I remember this from the book!!! D: Really enjoy how incredibly identical to the drawing Monique looks and even Sandra, but...it's kinda funny that Sandra is CLEARLY drawn chubby in the books, but in the movie she's only "movie chubby" which is real life skinny basically. I also <3 seeing Cera in full makeup and the parka. I had no idea it would be so ratty, but it makes sense. The park I bought in commiseration for the series is actually much, much nicer and cooler than the one used in the movie! LOL Apropos SP, a recent conversation: Me:They pay you like a $100 a day for being an extra on the Scott Pilgrim movie. Krystal: I...don't care about Scott Pilgrim. ME:Noooooo! Don't SAY that! D: Krystal:I...I mean...I dunno? Am I supposed to? Should I?? Heh. I amuse myself so much. Mood: chipper Music: 23-Blonde Redhead

	2009.06.05  03.10 So wait, this song is about sex in a library...?!!! ugh.. -Why doesn't Imeem have that entire Stars album? -Why can't I seem to get anything to make things work? I mean, it does feel like huge shifts in my life are completely outside of my control and decided by the random whims of other people. Is this a normal thing in everyone's life? I feel like I can't even control the momentum in my life most of the time. -Why is everyone so fucking frustrating?? I wonder if I frustrate everyone else as much as they frustrate me and other people are just better at dealing with it than I am? -People with OCD shouldn't have Facebook accounts. I open a separate window just to refresh it every 2-4 minutes sometimes. As if someone is going to post some substantial or super urgent update that I just have to read that very moment, like "Wesley, watch out! There's someone behind you!" or something. -I actually kinda enjoy that Global Warming has completely destroyed the season known as "Summer," but even this is a bit too cold and gloomy for me. As much as I hate the sun, I do enjoy wearing shorts... -I keep forgetting to eat food and having weird dreams/quasi-nightmares. It's like, why can't I have those TOTALLY IMPLAUSIBLE nightmares everyone else has - getting eaten by zombies, falling down a hole, etc. ?? I have dreams about things like working this really crappy job, and being depressed so I call my girlfriend to talk about it, and then she's not answering her phone so I go home early to find her cheating on me! I'm dreaming about things that can and probably WILL happen to me!!! And to make it worse, they tend to involve specific places and people. Just so my subconscious gets the message across loudly enough that "this is what you have to look forward to." It's so bad, it's actually sort of amusing to me. I think I'm the only person who has nightmares about romantic failures and wakes up in cold sweats because "I dropped the ring down a storm drain and she never got to see it" or something. Well, maybe not something THAT obvious and cheesy, but things like that. It's so bad! LOL Mood: grumpy Music: Young Adult Friction-The Pains of Being Pure at Heart

	2009.06.02  03.19 Acquiesced Jessica, I just started watching "Skins" this very moment. So now, I am forcing you to watch "Peep Show". Mood: sleepy Music: Young Adult Friction-The Pains of Being Pure at Heart

	2009.06.01  19.53 Comic update: So I came up with the idea to do a high fantasy thing, then lost interest over the course of working on it. Then the other day, out of the blue, I got an idea that I feel is unique and interesting enough to actually follow through on. It's also probably due to the me immediately having a feel for the lead and supporting roles before I finished even settling on the concept 100% - always a good sign. Also great is when I have something to research for an idea since that process usually breeds a ton of ideas I wouldn't have without the outside stimulus. Things that are set in stone: -It will be 20-25 pages and then if I get enough response - more. -It will be a fantasy/real world, dystopian fusion, fictionalized take on the life of Vincent van Gogh. (lol...I'm pretty proud of the unique concept. It'll make total sense once you see it in action!) -it will still contain whales(hopefully). -The title will be some variation of "The Starry Night". -Aside from Van Gogh, the other two leads will be his brother Theo and Clasina Maria Hoornik/Sien. Although his relationship with Sien will be completely different than reality. -Most of the events of Van Gogh's life will remain intact, but the timeline will be thrown out completely. So right now, I'm really trying to find decent pictures of Sien and Theo to draw from. Also really, really trying to find pictures of French 18th Century fashion trends... Don't want to do it half-assed, but I do want to get moving and make sure I actually finish it within the next two months. If anyone just has pictures of French, 18th Century fashion...that'd be awesome. :d It'd be really nice if my printer worked right now... If I can find enough clothing references, I'll probably post character designs mid-week. Already wrote about the first half of the script. Mood: artistic Music: Flagpole Sitta-Harvey Danger

	2009.05.31  21.49 LOL It's been a really, devastatingly bad week. But meh... Haven't really been watching any tv since ANTM ended, but I am super excited about Conan coming back. So I guess I'll watch that show when I can. Also, can't wait till the THIS comes back. I think I've watched all 5 series 3-4 times through at this point! Why was the new season pushed back ANOTHER month?!! Even the tv trailer's pretty funny...and it starting on April 13th is just perfect!XDD http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BgAJ7Ssmd1U And a pretty good "generic" promo aimed at Americans. I hate/love how Jez and I dress alike. I wonder what it means... Also love how every batch of scenes contains AT LEAST one moment where Mark and Jez bring some poor woman to tears or abuse minors!XDDD Mood: amused

	2009.05.27  14.47 Hubris Ffffffffffffffffffffffffff!! Whhhhhy???! I mean, FUCK! That would have been perfect. Now I have to over analyze everything I probably did wrong or why this didn't work. Goddammit. I knew it was too good to be true. I knew Jesus didn't love me. Shit. I guess I'll have to sell my xbox/only Christmas gift now...AGAIN. Now I just hope this is the emergency I think it is. And that I can get as close to full price as possible on ebay. I mean, I have the $100 wifi thingie with it and a game. So... SHIT!!! Fate really loves jabbing their thumb in my eye. I think I'm gonna go blind soon. Let's see...Chocolate is for heartbreak, so I guess...booze for disappointment?? Fuck. Yeah, definitely alcohol, tonite. Hopefully the drinks will shove my hopes down into the pit of my stomach so they never get up like this again. Mood: disappointed Music: She Don't Use Jelly-The Flaming Lips